Bye bye 2011

2011 was quite eventful for us.

It was so nice to have both sets of parents visiting during the summer and then both sisters and families visiting for Christmas. Being so far away from family, it is such a treat when that happens. We got to travel to many places with our parents and that was always something I wanted to do. To show them our adopted country and spend time together while we are all healthy. R got a promotion and did great at work. We learned we are (God willing) going to welcome a new life next year. We had a move and was blessed with a better house.

On the other hand, work has been crazy busy for R, traveling with Neil was very hectic for me, there was a lot of illnesses for everyone. We suffered some big financial losses, I had a very difficult 1st trimester with horrible debilitating migraines. I found out I have some health issues. Someone very close to us died unexpectedly and it was just hard to deal with. We had a move and had to get the house ready in 2 weeks. And we have a house now to be rented.

There were a lot going on in the last few days and I was feeling completely overwhelmed. I had help from both families, but the feeling was not because of the things to do although they are plenty of course. Sometimes when we get a really great gift from someone, don't we feel like it is just too much? That is how I have been feeling. The blessings have been numerous. And instead of being thankful, it is making me fearful. I know the hormones are working overtime for me, but I have been many times to the point of being unable to enjoy the present for fear of the unknown.

For the past two days, I have been an emotional seesaw. What am I going to lose to balance the blessings? I know God doesn't work with blessings that way, he takes pleasure in giving good gifts to his children. And I also know that if He chooses that I walk through the valley, that He would still be the same one who took me through the hilltops.

Fear is addressed so much in the bible because the Lord knows we struggle with it. My fears now are imaginary as nothing has happened so far, but they are all possible. I worry about the health and well being of my husband, child(ren), parents and many other stuff that most of us worry about. But God has not given us a spirit of fear, so we need not spend our days being afraid.

None of us know what the next year holds for us. But we know Who holds it in his hand. And because of that, we can eagerly anticipate the new year.

Happy 2012 everyone. May it be filled with blessings from above.