I was 87 pounds in 2003 when I came to US. When I got married in 2005 end, I was 95 pounds. Everyone told me I would put on weight after marriage. End of 2007 I was 97. So I didn't really put on much weight at all. 2008 was the year I started fertility treatments. It increased my weight by 6 pounds. By the time I got pregnant with Neil, I was 103 pounds. I gained 22 lbs during pregnancy. I had come down to 109. I figured 109 was okay with my height. Till recently I was working full time outside the home and taking care of Neil and I was more or less the same weight.
Today, I happened to look at my weight and I have climbed up to 115 lbs. I know that it is not a big number and there are lots of people struggling with big numbers. But the fact is that I am a very small, petite person and the waist and the weight does not look good on me. It is interfering with how I feel about myself. I am not happy with what I see in the mirror. I don't really care about stretch marks and other lovelies that came with carrying and bringing life to earth. Those scars don't bother me.
I know I will never go back to a pre-baby body and I will never be 87 lbs again. :) I don't even want to. I think I looked sickly then. I have pictures of a sickly looking creature from 2003 to prove it. But neither do I want to be 115 lbs with a stomach that hangs out. I honestly can't blame pregnancy for my stomach now. Earlier when I used to be working, I came home actually energized to take care of Neil especially having spent the whole day away from him. Now I get up in the morning and by 5 pm, I am physically exhausted from taking care of him (parents of more than 2 kids are permitted to smile here), that I crash in the living room in front of the TV with some brownies or chips or chocolate. I never used to eat sweets, but now I eat a lot more. Also, I am much more mobile now. I thought that would help with weight loss, but no, I am eating more than enough to compensate for all the activity.
Plus, I have no time for workouts now. Who am I kidding? I can make time, but I just don't want to. So it is a really bad combination. Combined with the fact that my metabolism is slowing down, I am easily packing the pounds. I know I can reduce. I know I can look and feel better than this "letting myself go" that I have been doing. I know what I should be doing. Yet, I am not doing it. It frustrates me. If I can do these 3 things every day for the next seven days, I can see some changes.
Drink 3 bottles of water a day
Reduce rice intake
3 sets of stomach and 3 sets of squats a day
I just wanted to write this down so I can commit myself to doing it. At the end of 1 week, I want to see 114 instead of 115. I believe it is completely doable.
At the risk of embarassing mysef, I am going to update here everyday on these three.
3 comments:
I am cheering you on! I can certainly relate and have a terrible time doing something about it. I'll join you with your commitments this week.
I am with you and support you.You look absolutely fine with your wt.Just try working hard to get your tummy down.Its frustrating but it will take time.Its easy for some and hard for others.Honey get rid of your yummy snacks(brownies,chips...)from pantry.Do not have it at home.If you have them at home you will go for it.Keep up with your goal.Don't give up.
You can do it!
But I'll agree with anonymous that it will be much easier if you refuse to bring carby things into the house (brownies, chips, ice cream). We no longer buy that stuff unless it is a special occasion, and then only enough for the occasion. I just don't have sufficient self-control to say No to temptation in the fridge when I am low on energy.
Years ago I used to keep myself going in the midst of exhaustion via sugary treats, and the eventual side effects to my health were baddddd. Still recovering. Learned my lesson the hard way. :/
But I doubt that you are as bad as I was. I wasn't waiting until evening to begin indulging. :)
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